Boy In Your Mind, Boy In The Car
I need you to give me a reason to breathe.
Actually no. See frustration can't explain how exhausted I am from this past month. No, this past year. My years revolve around school, so this past year is from September to now, the end. It's been more than a joy ride and still to this day I wonder why I have wasted so much time on pointless people. I always have sympathy and make excuses, but that's because I find it difficult to disown people who have no meaning to my life. I mean, someone can mean so much at one point, and in a second they can turn away from you.
Give me a chance, or rather give me the time of day. See this is what I hate about the male species especially. They complain how you dont pay them any attention or that you pay everyone else attention, but when will they come forward and get what they want. Is it just me, or are girls being "forced" to take on a lead role now. Hey, I know women fought for equal right but I'm the type to step back and let the poor gent take the control. Let me take the backseat for once and lower it down, I'm sick of first impressions too...but on a lighter note.
I finally mustered the courage to talk to mr. olden golden lover. Okay, so maybe courage wasnt needed because he was being completely foolish today, but obviously if you care about someone and they potential can be risking their life, you would say something too. And my oh my the conversation was at least 30 seconds, that has truly highlighted this far from perfect week. Maybe everything happens for a reason and my unstable heart just needs a bit of hope, just a little bit.
Four days of school left and there's just one person, one more thing on my mind. It's not really on my mind, but more like its buried in my mind. I can't leave this for the summer because by the time then, Ill be bored and tired of making an effort anyways, so what must be done, must be done in the matter of four days. See if I could reverse the clock, I'd make it possible for me + you to change this current lifestyle of mine. Now, if I could handle that change, only time could tell. It's odd, really, how my opinion of him fluctuates more constant than my choice of rings to wear each day, but as a matter of fact I have a difficult time selecting which of many rings I should wear on each hand. And eventhough I always wear my diamond-studded cross, I contemplate whether another ring is necessary and how it will effect my classroom performance. But not to get distracted, he seems to be iffy lately, as though he is unsure about decisions involving me. Simply said, I can be quite puzzling to understand but under the surface I like reality to be blan. No, I'm not a plain jane but everything in my life is easier said than done when someone else is asked to do it. i admit I get slightly nervous, but when I want something I dont give a damn about the weather, or connatatively speaking I dont give a damn about the situation, I live for the moment.
Kiss me or just leave me, how is that for a pick up line?
Life is strange, how you can have everyone at your reach and disposal, but the one person you always yearn for detours in and out of your life. Take that analogy and multiply it by 4, and contrast it to the one and only person of my interest , for the moment. It is what it is, and inevitably I have to move forward in the fall, leaving all of this behind (no pun intended). But until then, I have a summer comprised of full-time work, chilling, unintentional encounters, repeat lust stories and reading. Sounds dull now, but as it all replays in my head I look forward to each and everyday spent far away from the past.
This is my release , but I'll reconcile the violence in your heart.
Actually no. See frustration can't explain how exhausted I am from this past month. No, this past year. My years revolve around school, so this past year is from September to now, the end. It's been more than a joy ride and still to this day I wonder why I have wasted so much time on pointless people. I always have sympathy and make excuses, but that's because I find it difficult to disown people who have no meaning to my life. I mean, someone can mean so much at one point, and in a second they can turn away from you.
Give me a chance, or rather give me the time of day. See this is what I hate about the male species especially. They complain how you dont pay them any attention or that you pay everyone else attention, but when will they come forward and get what they want. Is it just me, or are girls being "forced" to take on a lead role now. Hey, I know women fought for equal right but I'm the type to step back and let the poor gent take the control. Let me take the backseat for once and lower it down, I'm sick of first impressions too...but on a lighter note.
I finally mustered the courage to talk to mr. olden golden lover. Okay, so maybe courage wasnt needed because he was being completely foolish today, but obviously if you care about someone and they potential can be risking their life, you would say something too. And my oh my the conversation was at least 30 seconds, that has truly highlighted this far from perfect week. Maybe everything happens for a reason and my unstable heart just needs a bit of hope, just a little bit.
Four days of school left and there's just one person, one more thing on my mind. It's not really on my mind, but more like its buried in my mind. I can't leave this for the summer because by the time then, Ill be bored and tired of making an effort anyways, so what must be done, must be done in the matter of four days. See if I could reverse the clock, I'd make it possible for me + you to change this current lifestyle of mine. Now, if I could handle that change, only time could tell. It's odd, really, how my opinion of him fluctuates more constant than my choice of rings to wear each day, but as a matter of fact I have a difficult time selecting which of many rings I should wear on each hand. And eventhough I always wear my diamond-studded cross, I contemplate whether another ring is necessary and how it will effect my classroom performance. But not to get distracted, he seems to be iffy lately, as though he is unsure about decisions involving me. Simply said, I can be quite puzzling to understand but under the surface I like reality to be blan. No, I'm not a plain jane but everything in my life is easier said than done when someone else is asked to do it. i admit I get slightly nervous, but when I want something I dont give a damn about the weather, or connatatively speaking I dont give a damn about the situation, I live for the moment.
Kiss me or just leave me, how is that for a pick up line?
Life is strange, how you can have everyone at your reach and disposal, but the one person you always yearn for detours in and out of your life. Take that analogy and multiply it by 4, and contrast it to the one and only person of my interest , for the moment. It is what it is, and inevitably I have to move forward in the fall, leaving all of this behind (no pun intended). But until then, I have a summer comprised of full-time work, chilling, unintentional encounters, repeat lust stories and reading. Sounds dull now, but as it all replays in my head I look forward to each and everyday spent far away from the past.
This is my release , but I'll reconcile the violence in your heart.
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